Milestones

Yesterday, June 6, 2005, was my 50th birthday. No, I'm not fishing for birthday greetings - if I had wanted to do that, I would have mentioned it before the actual date, and would have done so where more people would have got the hint. It just reminds me that time is not standing still, for me or anyone else. I have had a wonderful life so far, and I hope I continue to have the good fortune that I have been blessed with up to now, for a long time to come. But I have coasted for a good part of the journey, and not put in as much effort as I could have to make it even better. Coasting is a hard habit to break. I'm telling you, I've really liked having it as easy as I have, and knowing that it will take some hard work to get over some of the obstacles that have cropped up is a bitch to deal with. I guess I'm hoping that writing this down, somewhere that it might be read by someone other than me, will prod me into getting off the dime and applying myself where I need to. I know that I can do it; motivating myself is the trick. Will this work? Time will tell. Maybe I should print this out and tape it to my bathroom mirror or something. In any case, getting it off my chest gives me a small sense of satisfaction. I'll see if I can build on that.